Bobby called me on his way out Monday, "I just saw the J.W.s proselyting. Heads up." So I closed everything up to be able to pretend no one was home when they came by and went about my day not even noticing they didn't come by. But, I didn't realize that they were housing out the area and I had let my guards down the next day when they came knocking on my door. I opened it having completely forgotten about Bobby's warning call the day before.
Hey, I figure I knocked on thousands of doors as a missionary why not be nice. I know what it's like. So I listened. They're approach was "Do you ever feel like the world is in chaos and it's affecting you?" She brought up the fighting that's going on with the Russians. They tried to make the approach that the Bible has the answers to help us feel peace in this chaotic world of doom and gloom.
After looking around me and seeing what a beautiful day it really was here in this cute, suburban neighborhood and how peaceful my street was with no one around but us, and hearing my kids playing nicely together in my clean house as I finish up a book, my reply was, "Not really. Sadly it's out of sight and out of mind." I don't want to be unempathetic or indifferent to the terrible things people are going through but right now (today at this moment) things are good and I'd like to enjoy this moment in my life without feeling guilty people. Haven't I been through enough already?
So I was feeling guilty afterwards. We really are blessed. Yes, we have trials. I know I have. I struggle through them all the time and am grateful when they pass and I feel better. What comes to mind is the teaching from the scriptures that goes something like the following--where much is given much is required. Surely the boss upstairs can't be too disappointed in me for being comfortable right now, I have 3 young boys for crying out loud. But it's true I need to reach out more especially to those who are struggling as I do or as I have in the past with life, pregnancy, post partum ness, etc. I probably should make an effort to serve others and actually apply the principles of the gospel in my life. We pray, love our kids, don't break the law, but there's more that I can do. I should have given water to the guy trying to sell magazines today. Small acts of service, a good place to start.